it's been a long time i never blog, maybe due to i don't like to talk.. i am really stress and not happy in icu, there is always some mistake for me to make, even a small mistake they like to bring it up and make it a big issue, i don't really understand why they want to do so.. but thank God, because i am forgetful, so all the unhappy things always i can forget in 1-2 days..
what caunseling letter, what infection control, all are noisense.. i hate to work here, i hate my laziness, i hate that can not go church but i lazy to go some times, i hate it.. i really hate myself for leave my God, my life like shit, but i already use to it, maybe this is the reason that even i not going church also got no problem gua..
how many months i had work in icu? 3 months. but ii still don't know how to intubate.. haiz.. how la.. maybe i really not suitable for icu.. haiz.. but i don't want to quit, i want the experience here, i must get the experience before i leave icu, for my own good, i must hold, must get through all the tough way.. what ever angry or causelling, i must smile and thanks them to teach, don't give up, keep it on, yijen
